Gay: Stories: Gay Death

"[At a dinner party of some straight friends, my lover and I realized that] unconsciously we had come to live with a different set of expectations and assumptions about life, about what it means and what the possibilities are. We have a different sense of time, and of possible futures or lack of them, and a different sense of what is important and what is not. We live with a habitual level of intensity that comes from existing daily with matters of life and death. They [the straights at the party] neither live with this intensity nor do they understand it -- though I think they peripherally perceive it, and with some discomfort. It is as if we move through our troubled world walking in deep sand, while our hosts still walk on paved roads - - perhaps not gold, but firm, relatively clean and trustworthy nevertheless. What was so apparent in them during that dinner was their ease, their easy sense of expectation and their trust that each step would follow the last, and that the road actually went somewhere. We have so little of that left. We move with so much more effort, and do it with so much doubt about its purpose."
--Walt Odets in his book "In the Shadow of the Epidemic: Being HIV Negative in the Age of AIDS."

Reflection on the anniversary of a life partner's death
Brother's suicide
Friend Tom's suicide (a response to Brother's suicide)
Conversations with the dead
Obituary for Walter Phillips
Visit to the Quilt causes Danny Ingram to finally cry
Howard Arthur Faye talks about being sick
Mary's friend Tom has mastoiditis
Tragic AIDS death
Richard Dieteman died
Friend Michael dying
Greg Parkinson recalls his sick lover Eddy
Greg Parkinson recalls Eddy's death
Doogie's dead and dying friends and Rob Saunier's reply
Arnold Zwicky recalls his friend Bob Wharton
Robert and Victor dying of AIDS and discriminated against
Ray West kidnapped, robbed, stripped, beaten, and shot
Bill Metz stabbed to death
Poet and writer Ian Stephens died
Greg Havican dumped when diagnosed with colon cancer, then former lover dies.
Death of a tweaker
A series of murders in Boston look like antigay hatecrimes
More Boston murders fit the pattern of antigay hatecrimes
Ken Rudolph recalls gay and straight murder victims he has known

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